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Saturday, May 17th, 2008
3:41 pm	When Dreams Come True... Over the past year I have been slowly working towards getting published. And on the 20th of March 2008 I finally succeeded. The book came out, and is now on sale. It is being sold in the UK and America, and I am also trying to get it sold in Australia as well. This is a dream that I have had since I was a little girl. And hopefully I will continue to get published *s*. It's not a aim or goal to be famous, it's just a desire to share the worlds within my mind with others out there. For those wondering what the book is about: Here is my myspace page to look at - http://www.myspace.com/bluegemstone The Guardians' Bane: The Guardians of the underground land of Nainya have watched over the desolate people on the surface for years, protecting them against evil. But war is brewing in the barren wastes of Hymborli, and Katarna, the only Guardian who can stop the advance of the enemy, has vanished into the desolate land. It is up to Myst, her sister, to seek out the missing guardian. Myst and her companions; Shadow, Boar and Wanderer, find themselves in a desperate race to reach Katarna before the enemy; but with the Guardians themselves torn between darkness and light, and their foes attacking at every turn, can they do it? On the myspace page there are two sample chapters from the book that people can peruse to see if they'd like the book enough to buy it. Happy reading. (2 Comments |Comment on this)
Wednesday, February 20th, 2008
12:03 pm	I give up It seems some of my plays are not 'liked'. Negetivity and such. Well it stops here. No more negetivity will come from my Characters. In fact they won't even mention the C's that the negetivity might have come from in a realistic sense. I have just now lost half or any muse to play much of anything. Either I'm being accused of blocking someone from getting what they want, or my c's being negetivity, that they are just suppose to forget the hurt and be happy just like that. Yeah play stupid bimbo C's instead of the indepth characters that I like to play. I play indepth, my characters have histories. My characters will re-act to events taking place around them. I am a writer and this is how I bloody write. And I thought I was rping/writing with fellow writers who would follow through the SL through the dark and light, through the highs' and lows. But no, it seems people want the blond bimbo character that just grins stupidly all the time and no matter what's thrown at them still smiles. Fine....I'll play the bimbo. As that seems to be the concensus. People may do as they wish and my C's will simply smile and not give a emotional response any more. To those who like indepth play, and are better than this. The characters played to you will continue with their indepth evolving as SL's are slowly woven like a tapestry. As that is what rping is about, a collective writing of various author's, all putting in their heart's worth of writing and history of their particular characters. Working them through issues and situations that reveals the truth of their character's nature and allows that Character to evolve to become more life like and something more tangible than just a name on a piece of paper. Current Mood: aggravated (1 Comment |Comment on this)
Thursday, February 14th, 2008
9:27 am	Days seem to give me wings... It has been a while since my last entry. I am happy to say that this entry should be of a good deal lighter in mood then some of my other entries. I strive to write not only about the things that one would call rantings, but also the better things to occur in my life. First things first. I had been running a intricate storyline in a Room, building up to certian plots and twists but due to the hosts not liking the way I was talking about things, I had to scrub the storyline. It's not something i like doing but when I'm being told that I am suddenly going against rules, and people think I am ganging up against 'someone'. I don't take lightly to it. I can assure people in that particular room I shan't run any further storylines. I have my own rooms to do that within, and I have fellow writers who write with me in regards to it, who are adding their own storylines and twists with mine so that it flows like a river of ideas. Wars, deception, treachery, blossoming love all coming together in a time of upheavel and unrest. We are all enjoying what we are writing, free of being told how to write our characters. But with the appropriate rules to keep things in check in our room. That was the down side. The good side, is that I am one step closer to being published. I have been sent the final print proofs, and seen the cover of my book. It came out lovely. I shall recieve a box of my own books in a month or two I believe along with promotional material so that I can advertise my novel to all the local book shops in the area. I also visited a writers' group last night that I have become a member of. Mostly made up of local poets, but also a small number of writers like myself. Though the others have launched books of true stories or short stories or something like that. We meet once a month, the second wednesday in the month. I am hoping in speaking with others that it will help with my own writing. I have been studying again, yes i never seem to stop. Doing two subjects for my certificate of Theology and i have exam's next week so I'm keeping basically to just a couple of rooms. One that I've recently opened because we have a massive wedding happening that nearly everyone is involved and the other I was asked to keep an eye on for a friend. And in the meantime I prep for my exam's, one's on Monday, the other is on Thursady. Then the week after that I begin University, another year. I'll be into my 2nd year. Just two more years before I'm a qualified Teacher. Though if my book really takes off I won't really have to worry about teaching as much. We shall see. The weather has been interesting here of late, we are meant to have rain but it never comes. The clouds show then a strong wind starts to blow them away. We need the rain, to further break the drought and for our farmers to water their lands to grow hay to feed their animals. That's it from me for the moment.... Current Mood: contemplative (1 Comment |Comment on this)
Wednesday, December 26th, 2007
3:21 pm	Don'tcha just love..... Oh it's been one of those weeks where you wish you never did something. But you do it anyways cause you got two friends who like the idea and the writing and effort put into something while others do everything possible to stop it. Lets see....LCS. I thought I'd never return, but I did for Kim and Anna. Not for anyone else. As they take great joy in the things I creat where my writing is concerned. So...I bring back some of my all time ooollld favourites. Such as Anna Ling, and Cho Ling, I had a very big SL with them at one time, until I was driven out of LCS due to people who kept re-writing their Characters on me, or replacing me if I left for so much as a day. So I come back, I set up some of my fav C's. And I get it thrown in my face how I've been replaced in some area's. I almost left again, felt like leaving that bloody site altogether with that kinda attitude. But I stayed cause of Kim and Anna, both who are interested in what I have been plotting. So I bring Cho back, with her history, and have been working through her SL, as she's a estranged wife, so she needs a divorce to move forward. However certain people came down on both myself and my partner for what we were playing. Three in fact made it very very clear that they don't like that rp so I have altered it. Forget about divorce, forget about past contacts, that is all out the window, they can have their happy little unrealistic town. I'll play the real depth of C's with the ones interested, and so I have removed Anna and Cho from that plot, they are gone from Rattlesnakes Flats and will never again return. Or at least Anna will 'never' return. Cho will in time return and marry the man she is currently falling in love with. Someone always would say.....but I just rp to have fun, and yet that someone was the one kicking up the most shit about my SL. Well I've fixed it, they don't have to worry about that SL ruining their SL's ever again. I get the hint very quickly. Yes I probably am rumbling and none of this makes sense to most of you, but some of you will know what I'm talking about and will know why I'm a little on the pissed side of things. I'll just stick to my little mole hill and certain people can stick to their own. (3 Comments |Comment on this)
Saturday, December 15th, 2007
4:48 pm	Days of thunder... The days go well. Athena Press is continuing with preparing my book for publication. I should hear something within the next two months. I am currently on vacation from Univeristy and soon my son's holidays start too. Christmas is coming, we have the Christmas tree up, and strings of cards hanging in place. I have sent off a heap of christmas cards to my various friends. And on Monday I shall be sending off parcels for some of my closest friends. I think they will like their gifts tehe. In the wonderful world of RP, things have their ups and downs. All sorts of interesting SL's are being woven amongst my friends. Born to try by Delta Goodrem Doing everything that I believe in Going by the rules that I’ve been taught More understanding of what’s around me And protected from the walls of love All that you see is me And all I truly believe That I was born to try I’ve learned to love Be understanding And believe in life But you’ve got to make choices Be wrong or right Sometimes you’ve got to sacrifice the things you like But I was born to try No point in talking what you should have been And regretting the things that went on Life’s full of mistakes, destinies and fate Remove the clouds look at the bigger picture And all that you see is me And all I truly believe That I was born to try I’ve learned to love Be understanding And believe in life But you’ve got to make choices Be wrong or right Sometimes you’ve got to sacrifice the things you like But I was born to try All that you see is me All I truly believe All that you see is me And all I truly believe That I was born to try I’ve learned to love Be understanding And believe in life But you’ve got to make choices Be wrong or right Sometimes you’ve got to sacrifice the things you like But I was born to try But you’ve got to make choices Be wrong or right Sometimes you’ve got to sacrifice the things you like But I was born to try (1 Comment |Comment on this)
Tuesday, December 4th, 2007
8:41 am	Under every cloud there is a silver lining... Most of you will know that I have been trying to get published. I am going through a subsidy publishing company known as Athena Press. They had been good up until recently when they said they didn't get the last two checks that I sent them. So suddenly everything went quiet until I sent them an email. Then it turned into something like an email war to get them to understand that I had sent the cheque's. I even had to go to the bank to get the information on the cheques of where they had been and if the cheques had been cashed. Today I got a email from Athena Press apologising and saying that they could only assume they got the payments and would be going ahead with work on my manuscript, in fact putting it to the front of the que. An answer to prayer. (1 Comment |Comment on this)
Thursday, November 22nd, 2007
3:34 am	Donchat just love life... Don't you just love life? Likes to slap you in the face, and rub things in that you thought you had dealt with. Things of the past come back and you are left wondering what the hell did you do? Or why the hell did you do that in the first place? I'm a observer, a watcher, I watch things and I watch and observe friends. I hate it when I see friends getting hurt by others who don't give a damn. But that's the way life is. We have to soldier on, take those hurts and use them for something better. We get tougher hides....reminds me of a song... "When I, thought I knew you Thinking, that you were true I guess I, I couldn't trust 'Cause your bluff time is up 'Cause I've had enough You were, there by my side Always, down for the ride But your, joy ride just came down in flames 'Cause your greed sold me out of shame, mmhmm After all of the stealing and cheating You probably think that I hold resentment for you But, uh uh, oh no, you're wrong 'Cause if it wasn't for all that you tried to do I wouldn't know just how capable I am to pull through So I wanna say thank you 'Cause it makes me that much stronger Makes me work a little bit harder It makes me that much wiser So thanks for making me a fighter Made me learn a little bit faster Made my skin a little bit thicker Makes me that much smarter So thanks for making me a fighter Oh, ohh Never, saw it coming All of, your backstabbing Just so, you could cash in On a good thing before I realized your game I heard, you're going around Playing, the victim now But don't, even begin Feeling I'm the one to blame 'Cause you dug your own grave, uh huh After all of the fights and the lies Yes you wanted to harm me but that won't work anymore Uh, no more, oh no, it's over 'Cause if it wasn't for all of your torture I wouldn't know how to be this way now, and never back down So I wanna say thank you 'Cause it makes me that much stronger Makes me work a little bit harder Makes me that much wiser So thanks for making me a fighter Made me learn a little bit faster Made my skin a little bit thicker It makes me that much smarter So thanks for making me a fighter " (Comment on this)
Sunday, November 18th, 2007
9:55 am	And the days slip along... Ah this world is a delightful cruel thing. People so easily replaced, without a care. And we move on, and then others wonder why there is a distinct silence. But what is there to say any more? I'll sum it all up in just a song known as 'Please by the Strained', it says it all. Can't you see that I'm sick of this? Chances are you're oblivious To how I feel Sitting on your throne And I'm sure that I'm not alone Not alone Not alone Tell me please Who the fuck did you want me to be? Was it something that I couldn't see? Never knew this would be so political And please I'm still wearing this miserable skin And it's starting to tear from within But it's obvious that doesn't bother you So please I didn't think that you'd sell me out Now I know what you're all about You might feel in control of things But you're not holding all the strings All the strings All the strings Tell me please Who the fuck did you want me to be? Was it something that I couldn't see? Never knew this would be so political And please I'm still wearing this miserable skin And it's starting to tear from within But it's obvious that doesn't matter to you I swallowed all your answers I've swallowed all my pride You've used up all your chances Can't keep this all inside Tell me please Who the fuck did you want me to be? Was it something that I couldn't see? Never knew this would be so political And please I'm still wearing this miserable skin And it's starting to tear from within But it's obvious that doesn't bother you So please Don't keep telling me that it's okay I don't buy all the shit that you say And quite honestly I'm fucking sick of it So please If I cut off this nose from my face Then I wouldn't feel so out of place But it still wouldn't be quite enough for you So please (Comment on this)
Friday, November 16th, 2007
9:02 pm	When I say I'm a Christian When I say "I am a Christian" I am not shouting, "I am saved!" I'm whispering, "I got lost; That is why I chose this way" When I say "I am a Christian" I don't speak of this with pride, I'm confessing that I stumble And need someone to be my Guide When I say, "I am a Christian" I'm not trying to be strong I'm professing that I'm weak And pray for strength to carry on. When I say, "I am a Christian" I'm not bragging of success I'm admitting I have failed And can never pay the debt. When I say, "I am a Christian" I'm not claiming to be perfect My flaws are all too visible But God believes I'm worth it. When I say, "I am a Christian" I still feel the strong pain I have my share of heartaches Which is why I speak his name. When I say, "I am a Christian" I do not wish to judge I have no authority I only know I'm loved. (Brechin in Scotland) (2 Comments |Comment on this)
Wednesday, October 17th, 2007
11:32 am	Wednesday... Monday, busy day. Well actually, it was meant to be in one sense. Just not how I planned it. I woke up feeling unwell, but I had to go and do a group presentation for Psychology. The presentation went well, we impressed the Tutor greatly which was good. Then I came home. And when I got home, mother was waiting for me, wanting me to clean up my old desk, so that the new desk could be put into place. So instead of resting, I had to do cleaning and furniture shifting. Tuesday again I didn't feel well, and again, it was furniture shifting time and spring cleaning. So I didn't get to really recuperate as much as I would have liked. But still, I went to class today, half fell asleep in it. None the less, this is my second last week, and then I get ready for my four exams that I'll have to sit, and a couple of class tests on top of that. then it is break time for me. I will be doing two subjects though via my correspondance course that I am slowly working through, to continue working towards getting my 'Certificate of Theology'. I had to put that aside for this year, so I could get use to University and it's work load first, before taking that up again. All in all things are looking well. STAC has quite alot of life, we have quite a few regulars now who enjoy our diverse storylines. Rift Saga has been a little quiet, but then that is because the last few weeks I've only been sitting in one room due to my work load. Once things settle I'll be able to sit in Stac, RS and CT, and enjoy a wide spectrum of rps that WRC offers. In the mean time....signing out for now... (1 Comment |Comment on this)
Saturday, October 13th, 2007
8:32 am	Weekend stuff Well, term holidays where rather good I think, to a point. My son went with his grandmother to visit relatives in Gippsland giving me four days respite. As he can be quite the handful, sometimes it's like having three children in one, he has that much energy at times. When he came back, he then went to spend the night at the In'laws. Yes, they made changes, kinda forced them on me by dragging me to a mediator. And so now his monthly visits, are no longer a simple saturday. He now spends the night with them. Then the next week of his holidays was my first week back to University. I had all day classes on monday. Tuesday was a morning class, then I came home, as Mother had insisted I go to the movies. So I took Josh to see 'Evan Almighty'. It was a good movie, I just didn't like the fact mum decided I 'had' to go just because she decided she liked the movie and that we 'had' to see it because of what she thought. Wednesday, was another full day, I went to class, and then I had to go around to the house of a class mate, for preparation of a group presentation. Thursday we went to Elmore Field days, which took up all day, we were all very tired when we got home. After dinner I had choir Practise. Friday, last day of the week, and last day of Josh's holidays, he made cookies with his grandma, while I went to class. And Saturday and Sunday things began to somewhat calm down. Then my next week, which is this week just gone, busy as ever. Monday, classes all day, Tuesday, morning classes, Wednesday I was sick, Thursday was meant to be a study day but mum wanted me to clean my room, and Friday I had a hair apptment, then afternoon classes. This Weekend we are driving to St Arnaurds to meet my Mother's sister, to have lunch with her, and the little cousins, and then drive back. On Sunday, I teach Sunday School, then I have a little boy I'm to pick up and bring home with us, to look after him until five, when his mother will come to collect him. A friend for Josh to play with. And I have to clean the school. No rest for the wicked....heh.... My days are busy, as there is always something that needs to be done. I have two more weeks of University to go, then I have to hit the books and study, for exams. I have one more essay to write as well. So people if I'm not rping much....It's Because I'm Frigging Studying! (1 Comment |Comment on this)
Monday, September 24th, 2007
3:43 am	Net Wars A excerp from Cliff's Journal.... ' Let me add, JC is scum. She lied, she manipulated and she recruited openly and knowing she was violating site rules. The entire group, Gabby, JC and Anna all planned their mass exodus from trek on wbs to teach cloud a lesson. Lisa, they lied and you might be enlightened by a talk with Presence who was called on the phone friday by them and informed of what they were planning. It was planned ahead of time. It was a message they wanted to send Cloud because they felt she was hurting one of their group. So they wanted to teach her a lesson. In the process they aimed every member of those who went to my trek and told them to go to your site if they wanted rp. They all violated my aup, happily and willingly. If I ever prove they have done this a second time, I'm going to test our new found alliance and ask you to remove them from your site. What I've learned since the days I banned JC is astonishing. In short, they lied openly and blatantly to you and by now you should know I can and DO prove my accusations. ' I have ranted before, this really takes the cake. Firstly, Cliff decided to stick his nose into a argument that had arisen amongst players where his nose didn't belong. All friends have a fight, a scuffle over something and they fix things up and go back to being friends. However Cliff has a habit of making things worse, and keeping them worse. He has to fight with someone, if he's not fighting with site owners, he's got to be harressing and fighting with Chatters who he believes are being 'disloyal' to him. Cloud and I have had our talk, we know where we stand. If we are keeping a distance for the moment it's because I asked for it and she is being most polite in holding to my request. Now that is a part of friendship, you know when to step back from something. Wounds take time to heal and she understands that unlike Cliff who has no idea what he's going on about. I did my LOA as I stated, for University. I have completed my first Essay and handed that in on Friday. Would Cliff like to see it as proof? I have another due next Monday which I'll be spending this week working on. It's a very difficult question. Would Cliff like to write that for me? Would he like to attend University for me perhaps? It's not easy juggling classes, homework and a son. But my problems aren't as great as he. I'm coming to the end of my first University year, I'll have exams to deal with soon. So naturally I am cutting down to just one room. And if I choose to simply sit in STAC during that time that is my parogative. If I can manage to extend myself further I might. However, all these accusations that are being flung about, hold little to no ground. And what does Cliff mean by second time around? Oh yes, he's been coming into our room, watching us play and noting all the new people who might show interest in the room. *shrugs* People will play where they wish to play and where they feel most comfortable and welcome. If they find a room that holds to their interest and the people in that room are friendly then they will keep coming back. If you have any questions Lisa, you know you can ask me. Cloud already know's how Cliff has made this worse with the comments he was putting up on her room forum. I am sorry Cloud but I can't come back to play in your room now. Not with all this happening. However we will cross paths elsewhere I am sure. There is something that some people have to learn. All friends fight and have their scuffles, and everyone learns something out of it. And out of this I have learned that Cliff isn't a friend. He is simply a Bully and needs to manipulate people according to his wants and wishes. Thank you Cliff. Ban me if you wish, I don't care any more. (1 Comment |Comment on this)
Sunday, September 16th, 2007
10:32 pm	This is the Worst Weekend ever So this weekend was the worst weekend I have ever had that I can so far remember. Of course there will be other weekends to top this off. But this was just the shits. So...what happened I hear people ask. A friend decided to get all bossy and manipulative and dominating on another friend. That other friend tried to stand up for herself, but well....they are back talking again and so....it's just going to go in another circle again. Me and some others where all blamed by a certain person for doing things we didn't do. Only one did anything bad, it was a mistake and she owed to it and accepted it. But it all wore pretty thin by Sunday, when just when things started clearing, it was like...hey say sorry and pretend it never happened. Yeah right...pretend certain things weren't said? I'm sorry, but when one of my friends gets dragged through the mud, I don't forget easily especially when I know the other person WILL do it again..and again and the other will just go with it, complain, let herself get trampled all over and that's really it. But what can you do? Nothing. I"m not doing a single bloody thing. No more helping from me I'm afraid. Got to the point I considered going offline. Only one would miss me and that's my best friend. She'd be the only one to actually miss the rp's because she's a good friend. She's what I call...a real friend. So I'm feeling a little dark about people, I don't really trust anyone other than a very certain few at the moment. The rest..just don't understand what true friendship is. You don't go and pummel a friend because you don't get your own way. Especially when you know that friend is sick or something. This world....what is it coming to. I haven't had a cry in a while but I had one tonight. I could barely focus on my study. All I want to do is just curl up and pretty much pretend I don't exist. But I know trying to sleep tonight isn't going to be crash hot. I'll probably be up at 2 or 3am tonight....I haven't been sleeping well this week. And it's probably showing with my grumpiness. And my ramblings probably don't make any sense to anyone else reading them but they do to me, cause I know who I am writing about, who i'm not happy with, and what not. I'd go into detail but what's the use. No matter how many bandaids are stuck over a deep jagged wound, it's not going to heal fast. And certain things said actually managed to get beneath my scales....certain actions showe me....that what I might have said was for naught. In the end I should have just kept my mouth shut and disappeared quietly. No more next times i"m afraid though. though I am shutting up now. just the way people want me, all quite like, good ol' gabby..we can always rely on good ol' gabby to fill in space when our usual partners aren't around. good ol' gabby won't mind if we play around her character, doesn't matter does it? good ol' gabby won't kick up a fuss if we stab her in the back because we don't like how she's role playing out a scene to someone else's C because that someone else has asked for some good play instead of the usual same ol thing. good ol' gabby always there to defend and get bitten. Nice. No more. good ol' gabby ain't so good no more. Don't try my patience, don't walk all over me, I know what bullies are like, cause I've been a victim of a few over the years. I know a bully when I see one. And sometimes....that bully is a friend who likes to dominate the weaker friends. It's a sad thing to see....*shrugs* but each to their own. And everyone goes back to being the way they where but I can't. I won't. I'm not going to be docile and be good and do what is wanted of me. I'm sorry but I'm not going to. Other people might be able to, but I've been under a dominating thumb long enough to now know a dominating hand when I see one. And i've seen two. No more. Shoot me down for my rant, what ever, I don't care any more. Cause no one else cares what I'm going on about. I got morals and principles but they just go flying out the window where everyone else is concerned. Sorry I do'nt do that. Call me stubborn, call me stuck in the mud, call me trouble, what ever. Some people said some very nasty things, and words are not so easily forgotten, nor the hurt that they have made other's felt. And while others can move on and go back to being friends with the very ones who hurt them, I can't, I will carry the wound for a while longer being more sensitive than others, having felt their pain, and gone to lengths to give them support. It doesn't matter any more. What I think doesn't really matter. So don't really pay attention to the rantings of this dragon, you will all forget what I was so angsty over in the first place in days to come. You will forget but I won't, unfortunately....I can't. It's part of who I am. I see a friend in need and I'm there. And I put 'every' effort into being there for that friend. Just letting them talk out their problems. So they have someone to talk to, someone who WON"T JUDGE them. Like some people like to do. I have been accused of taking sides. I WASN'T FUCKING TAKING ANYONE'S FUCKING SIDE. And I am serious in the fact that I do have an Exam tomorrow. I have a Essay due on Friday, another essay is due in a couple of week's time that I have to draft up properly. And then it's exams. But who cares about real life? I mean who cares that I go to Uni, that I am there four days a week, that I have a son who I drive to school, then go on to Uni, and on Mondays' espcially I get home late. Who cares that sometimes living with my Mum doesn't work out, who cares that I have the in'laws breathing down my next most of the time demanding time with their grandson. Who gives a shit that I have a life outside the Net? I DON"T LIVE MY BLOODY LIFE AROUND THE NET! THE NET IS NOT MY LIFE! If I'm mad I can just turn the thing off and be done with it. Is that what people want? Cause if someone keeps pushing my buttons I'll do it. Throw this lovely laptop in the trash and never look back. But it would be like...big deal....your just another chatter. No lose to us. Ahh....and I let my fingers escape and let my thoughts poor out. Horrible nasty little Gabby. Lier, lier among other things? What else am I, I wonder? What do you do with a Angry dragon? Run. But who follows that advice anyway. *shrugs* somebody who actualy has some inkling of insanity. Like a song I heard....'here's your sign'. Goodnight. (4 Comments |Comment on this)
Wednesday, September 12th, 2007
7:46 pm	Another day Well the days have been busy I have finished one essay and have another two to go. I have a class test to come in a weeks time, that will be most interesting I think. We went to Violet Town on the weekend. As I wanted to get some clothes and it has a cheap market there the second saturday of every month. Plus Mum monster wanted to get some bracelets for my Aunt and her daughters. While there there was a Busker, he sang some nice songs. And he had a unique way to collect tips. there was a woman all in silver, silver painted boots, silver jeans, a silver jumper, silver hat, silver wig, her face and hands where painted silver, with a silver bag. At first you thought she was a statue until she moved slightly or winked at passer bys. She caused quite a curiousity, and when ever the children came up to put money in the buskers jar, she would then move and give the children lollipops. It was quite unique and well thought out I thought. Anyway we had walked past her previously, My son thought she was a statue, he yelled out to me. "Mum! That Statue blinked at me!" I couldn't help it, I was giggling away as we walked off along the stalls. Then we where coming back, and Josh wouldn't come near the lady unless I took him. So holding my hand we went over and he put the money in the jar, then his mouth dropped open as the statue came to life and gave him a lollipop. I wish I had had my camera, the look on his face was priceless. that was our highlight I think. where my writing is concerned, I'm waiting on the publishers, it's their move now heh. (Comment on this)
Saturday, August 25th, 2007
11:08 pm	A simple dream over the rainbow It is surprising how you will see one side of persons and then in one particular moment you will see a completely different side, and...well see that those people you had thought to be nice, wheren't so nice after all. In fact, they could be down right mean. And you wonder just who you have been dealing with all this time. These site wars are....incredible. one lot hates another lot and then that clears up and then they gather into a nother group of this group vs that group. It never ends. And the chatter? We are neatly put in our place if we say our mind and 'corrected' quite thoroughly because we don't know what is really going on. We are just the chatter. I have come to the conclusion therefore, that by hell or high water I am going to make my own chat site. A site where there are no such things as politics. A site which is simple and easy to access and you don't need a technical manuel go get in or to make the handles you want for various characters played. A site that has a variety of rooms to cater to the peoples needs. No doubling up on rooms, as that's just stupid, but a particular variety that catches the eye, and influcneces and inspires the mind. As when one thinks about it, all rpers are actual 'writers' within. Some of us doin't think that, perhaps don't even concieve it. But 'Writing' is a method of bringing out the inner soul of the human being. It is the words of the soul. The words we ourselves could never speak to a fellow human being. The characters we portray are what is within us, Just as I have a tendency to portray strong independant women who are tall and strong. When real life I am painfully shy, short and couldn't hit a fly if I wanted to. I live my true self through my writings. They are the mirrors of the soul deep within. The site would be careing of it's chatters, we would naturally start of small, possibly four rooms to begin with and simply grow through there if we recieved the necessary support. I wouldn't yell or haress people for coming to my site and also playing on other sites. I wouldn't stalk if people just decided the site wasn't for them and left and went and played elsewhere. This is meant to be a democracy, and thus, people are meant to have choice. If they choose to come to my site than they choose to. The site would encourage creativity, for people to dream because that is what you do when you are writing. You are dreaming of something else, something other, something out of your grasp that you can only gain in the company of fellow beings who share a kinship with you. I have a dream....as Martin Luther would say. The dream is blossoming in thought, and mark my words, it will find fruitation. Because if I can becoming a published author, than I can become a site owner. And I won't let it go to my head like it seems to have done with so many others. We all have dreams, and I will. Call me insane, but I will do it. I have been shall we say inspired through unseemly circumstance to provide chatters out there a site that is free of site wars and site politics. And where there is a warm friendly atmosphere that many may remember from the old days of netcentral. Back when chatting was fun and simple. Some will say, you can't do that. But I say....with time, careful planning and the right contacts....I can....and I will. Just watch me. Current Mood: creative (2 Comments |Comment on this)
Friday, August 24th, 2007
4:52 pm	not a good Friday So I go and speak my mind to someone. And a few go and pounce on me, and now I feel like why do I bother even speaking at all. And being called a child with little intelligence doesn't help. A child am i? What ever. I'm rambling and not making sense. I give up. (3 Comments |Comment on this)
Thursday, August 23rd, 2007
6:53 pm	The Net Wars continue....Cliff get a BRAIN! So....while things are all sweet and nice in WRC. Rooms floow rather well. Playage goes fine, we might not have high numbers, but it's comfortable. The rooms I play in are comfortable, that's the main thing. No one feels forced, nor left out. That is the aim of things. I have been around Whispering Realms Chat since it first came into being, I helped with it's graphics, even created a couple of pics for it for people to design around or use as inspiration. I watched it blossom, it is a lovely site. It doesn't matter if it doesn't have tones of people, taht it's not higly popular. People will go to where they wish simple as that. But there are power mungers out there. One such person being Cliff who cannot get a grip at times. I have recently found out that he banned some friends of mine from WBS, for what reason? Because they made a clone of their room on another site to draw in more players. So he pulls the room and bans them from WBS. That is a very stupid thing to do. I believe that power has goen to the head in all departments I'm afraid. I know that if I had a site Cliff would never be allowed near it and with a quiet patience I would ban every single accout he made and anyone else who allowed him to use their own account. Because frankly I don't believe that, no one in their right mind would allow another person to use their account. My theory is he hacks into sites, gets lists of accounts and uses them whether the people want him to or not. Cliff seems to be showing obessive behaviour in regards to IB. He doesn't like them but he can't help himself of going to the site to haress people. As if he enjoys causing trouble. And the only reason he went so nutty over my friends who made their clone room, is because they moved it to IB. I have a particular feeling that he wouldn't have acted so badly if they had made the clone room on WRC or Sanguine. he has bad blood with Joey and Ben just to name a few and loves to cause trouble with them. Instead of being a grown up and keeping his attention solely to his site he is often on other sites stalking people, especially if he knows them from WBS and then he accuses them of betraying WBS or the rooms they might play in on WBS if found in other rooms on other sites. I have had complaints in the past of friends who have come to my room, Rift Saga in regards to him haressing them for going to my room, accusing them of betraying the room owner. Well now, that room isn't there now is it. He's taken it down. Good one Cliff. You've just lost yourself a room and some mighty good players. Thankfully people on WRC are grown up and don't mind if you play on other sites as well as WRC. We believe in freedom, the freedom to go to what ever site you want to, even if you have a room on WRC. We don't have any rules that go against you, and we don't stalk you if you feel that you want to play somewhere else for a little while. We believe in cultivating friendships, a environment of warmth where a person feels like they can be themselves and not have to hide away or feel afraid someone is going to come after them if they decide they want to play elsewhere any time. Ah well..... Current Mood: irritated (2 Comments |Comment on this)
Tuesday, August 21st, 2007
9:19 am	Very Tired So last week I barely had time to stop and breath, well it almost feels that way. Then on Saturday I had to get up at 5am to get ready to go to Melbourne. As the Sunday school teachers at my Church where going to a all day seminar. We picked up some good things, good ideas and teaching material for the children. We didn't get home until 8.30pm that night. I got Josh off to bed soon after. He went to the snow, with another family, and really enjoyed himself. Sunday I barely got up in time, to get ready for Church. Got home, got people asking me for rp's, and then I just couldn't stay awake, so I went down for a nap. Slept soundly for two hours before Mum woke me up for Dinner. It's Tuesday and I still feel a little tired, I even had a early night last night. Usually I can't sleep until midnight or 1am, my brain is constantly busy. Monday was busy as usual, Psychology, 1 hour tutorial, two hour video conference lecture where we can't talk to the lecturer because he mutes us on the video link. It's very difficult to be in a lecture when you can't talk to the person if you have a question. Anyways they seem to think that fixes the problem of the noise problem they where getting. We don't like it but they aren't listening to us at the moment. Then after three hours there is a one hour break. Before another three hours and this is for Sociology. By the time I get out it's 5pm, and I get home by 5.30pm. Then I sit down, and listen to my son read, him finish his homework and it's dinner time. After dinner I have then an hour before my brother picks me up to take me to Bible College. I don't get home until around 9pm and than I can finally relax if any. Monday's are my busiest day where all I wanna do when I finally get home is crawl into bed *l*. The other days I go to class aren't so bad, but I like to think that I get the hardest subjects done on Monday which leaves the easier subjects in the later days of the week to do. (Comment on this)
Thursday, August 16th, 2007
10:10 pm	Time to write again.... It has been almost three weeks since I last wrote here. I've been pretty busy, all my days spent on running errands, going to University and what have you. I haven't had much time to put my feet up other than in the evenings and all I've wanted to do lately of an evening is play WoW. I had a talk with my brother the other night and he gave me some advice inregards to WoW and one of my characters, told me how to set it up so that my C could really take down the monsters with ease. So I"m very happy, my Hunter is now lvl 15, and I've moved forward since I last mucked around on it. heh. My room Rift Saga has really sprung to life, me and my sis....she is like a sister to me so I call her Sis...Chriss...anyways, we do alot of playings and either we are in Rift Saga, or in the other room that I co-host Star Trek Alpha Crisis. They are really groovy rooms and STAC is really taking off with some great role play going on there. Rescue missions, major plots, first contact happening. All the things I love, lots of action and adventure, the fast past going, just like in the movies. Where you don't have much time to breath before the next thing happens. The rush of adrenaline....that's what I love. Fast paced action where you never get much time to breath. tehe. Such as there is a rescue mission taking place between the Feds and the TAC to rescue a missiing admiral. And a TAC Ambassador is heading to Earth to meet dignitaries, the President, Council and other importan people. That being a political rp. Planet wars and the likes to occur and that are occuring. All high paced and strap on seatbelts type writing from the excellant writers involved. And in my room, several of us are caught up in various rp's ranging from fantasy that involves great wars occuring, and the heroes race against time to save people and races. Harry Potter, and it's universe is another. There is a massive modern horror rp that is on going, the battle between good and evil never ending, just to name a few. That which keeps my spirit up is good I think. Especially with what I recently had to deal with. My In-laws where at it again, threatening to take me to court unless I gave them more access with their grandson....my son. So I went along to a mediated meeting, where not before they riled against me, said I was to blame for various things and the likes, tried to paint me as the bad person, the witch. The Meditate however pointed out the meeting was not for pointing the blame at someone but to soley focus upon my son's interestes and what was best for him. I was thankful for the mediate who stepped in a couple of times to keep it focused on what was the main issue. Finally we came to an agreement, Josh will now stay over a night, once a month for six months. If he does well then it will go to two nights a month. That seemed to make them happy. I still don't see why they had to bully me into it. But they where impatient, they couldn't wait for me to finish grieving properly, then they couldn't wait for me to give them more time. They only want what they want. As the grandfather stated, he didn't care that my son was having bed wetting issues, he just wanted Josh over so that he could have more time with him. Well it matters to me and I care if my son was having such issues. And for them to gloat afterwards as if they had won a major victory wasn't something I swallowed well. But...that is all part of this little war I seem to be in heh. I was drained and not well for a couple of days or so after that, a contest of wills is not something to deal with lightly. I wanted to curl up and disappear, I still feel like that sometimes but if not for some good dear friends, I am here still. Ya'll know who you are *smiles* I love you guys. And to the final part of this. I am at the final stage of publishing, I have paid my final payment, and am now waiting on receiving the final proofs and the book cover to look over before the book finally goes into print. I am so very excited! Well that will do....I shall write gain soon *s* (1 Comment |Comment on this)
Tuesday, July 24th, 2007
11:53 am	It is a Good Day for War Time ticks by, and I grow more encouraged with what I hear about my novel. I have two more that I now must look to, to bring them up to potential publishing standards as well. It will be hard work as they need adjusting but it will all flow in the end. A series of three will be for this series. Then there is a series of four for another set. I feel as if I am going somewhere. I am pleased to say that my room has sprouted wings. I have various people coming in to play such things as Sci Fi, through to fantasy and even Harry Potter. Seeing as my room is a multi genre room, I am ble to cater for what ever is desired thus giving players a greater number of choices all at their fingertips. I am currently reading the final book in the Harry Potter series. I am a fan, though it will never top Lord of the Rings. But Rowling has tried her best even if the final book seems rather chaotic. None the less I am enjoying it as i have enjoyed all the others. University has begun, my subjects are relatively the same, but we move on with topics that I have yet to actually find out. Seeing as one of my classes was cancelled today. So I went up the street instead and bought the harry potter movies along with another one that caught my attention. That'll do for today. (Comment on this)